MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!

i haven been feeling well these days. duno what is happening to me. so my blog shall stop for a period as i am taking a long break now.

what is fate? is fate something fixed or we can change?
to me, fate is something we can change. i remembered that i read an article in my chinese promo where it says that fate is something changable and it all depends on one's heart, ones character. i agree with it. but what makes most people have the mindset that all the bad stuff which happens to them is caused by a fixed fate and blame the fate they have? why does people think that we cannot change fate? y must we always push the balme to others instead of reflecting on ourselves, on our character? one reason. because we are scared. we are scared to face the fact that we are the ones who created a horrible fate for ourselves. we are scared to admit that the problems we meet are created by ourselves. example when students does not do well, most will blame that the paper is too hard. but what they dont reflect upon is whether have they study hard enough. i am the same. i used to blame that everything is fate's fault. who ask me to be born with such a horrible fate. but when i came upon this passage, i almost cried. i realise that i am really coward after all. i am scared. scared to realise that it is my fault. scared to admit that it is my fault for everything turning this way. most importantly is i am scared of being hurt again and again. i realise i cannot handle the pain i experience wen i admit that fate turn out this way because of my actions. hence i learnt to run away from the problems i meet.
however, running away is not a solution. i learn to run away from most of the mistake i make since young. like wen i have something up in my heart, i run away from the problem. i didnt want to face it. i dont tell anyone about it. i juz keep it in somewhere deepest in my heart and hope one day i will forget about it. i once told someone about keepin prob in my heart. she told me it was bad for health and ask me to learn to let it go. but how? how can i let it go? i was the youngest in my family. sometimes i just feel that i cant turn to my family about the problems because infront of them, my problem would seem to be peanuts to them. i cant. i just cannot bring myself to tell them. tell my friends? they got their own problems too. we are just youngters who choose to run away from problems than to reflect on them. y? because it hurts too much. it hurts to noe that fate isnt fixed when we are born. it can be change which means that all the problems were caused by ourselves. afterall we are just teenagers who haven find the way to accept reality. i am one.
this passage i came upon tell us that we can actually change our fate. make our lifes change dramatically. how? by working hard, accepting the fact that fate is in our hands. it can be change. most importantly, pluck out all our courage to face the problems we meet. fate has a very deep meaning. it all depends on how a person looks at it. i am really glad i came upon this passage which change my mindset alot. i may not be able to promise that i would not cry wen i meet problem on the path of my life but i now can be sure that i will not run away from any problem meet. i will gather all my courage to face the problem. i am sure this will make me a better person. to people out there who haven found their meaning of life and fate, hopefully this is a helping entry to you. hopefully everyone can find it. remember : fate can be change. it all depends on whether u are willing to face it or not. i have already face it and now it is your turn. i feel that i have already found the true meaning of fate, life and due to this, i found true happiness. it is worth it.
get over the pain.
accept fate is in ur hands and not fixed.
fate depends on one's character. this is a sentence which i will forever keep in my heart.
this is my opinion.

haix having promos now and i feel lyk i duno i single thing... hopefully i can rmb something during exams.... the worst is that econs and bio are on the same day and they are both held in the air conditioned hall... arggghhh.... how am i going to write fast wen i am in a place where it is damn cold??? but the thing to look forward too is the promos is going to end soon and i am going to get back to my freedom days..hehe... i promise i will try to blog everyday after promos..... hohohohoho..... =)
by the way, GP PAPER2 TOTALLY SUCK!!!! i could not even understand the stupid questions!! i cant see the diff between "tomorrow's people" and "the person of tomorrow" -.- but i juz mange to crap something down for that stupid qns... but i like paper 1 for sure... the essay was easy to write... i wrote on the sale of organ should never be legalised... luckily somehow i came over this news article on this topic and i read it.... haha and oh i even discuss this topic with my mom b4... =)
haix have to go and study liaoz... wish everyone taking promos goodluck!!!!

I made this video playlist at myflashfetish.com

ONE OF THE GREATEST SONGS IN THE WORLD

went to the RSAF house opening for the entire day... i could say it was quite cool!!!! the planes, helicopter and fighter jet got me oooohhhing and ahhhing over them.... the parachutist oso!!!!! love how they land... they make it seem so easy even though the ground was slippery and wet due to the rain... me and my dad manage to get to the grandstand early and got a seat... then i fell asleep while waiting for the aerial display which was suppose start 30 mins after i got seated... could not blame me coz i stay till 2 plus in the morning editing songs for my mom....=)
i manage to get up close to the black knight pilots who flew the airplane during national day!!! i even saw the national day F16 (i think) plane... it was magnificant... the red and white totally sombolise Singapore's flag!!!
whew damn tired now!!! will upload the pics some other time... bye...

hellooo to anyone who is reading... it is pity that i could not make to ytd's meeting ... then could have met up with 4/9 n some teachers again... haix.... but ytd  went to Rochor with my mum to shop for her things and i got a new bag from og which cost like $49 dollars.... i thought it was worth it...coz it is really very nice...

WeiYang aka YangYang(left)
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